I woke up Sunday morning to the sound of my mom moaning in the bathroom. The 1st thing I thought was, oh no she is sick. My mom needs a surgery and was suppose to have this surgery on Monday the 5th. I called my mom and asked her if she could reschedule the surgery because I needed her to watch my kids. I have major anxiety when it comes to my kids. I felt like I could not get on that plane and fly half way across the world not knowing if they are ok. I feel safe when my mom is there with them. It's so hard to have children across the world from each other.
When my mom came out of the restroom I asked her if she was ok? She said yes. I knew otherwise. I could see the pain in her face. This saddened me. I then laid in my bed and cried listening to her reading a book to Lily. I could hear the pain in her voice. I lost it, I felt so guilty that my mom needed a surgery and I asked her to reschedule and now she is protecting me from my anxiety.
I think I cried all day long and we had to leave that night to head to the airport. I reached out to my special friends who are in the adoption process right along with me. They immediately started praying, sending bible verses and started speaking to me. They were praying for healing for my mom and healing for my anxiety. Let me tell y'all I felt their prayers. I was able to get up pack and feel a sense of peace.
As I'm writing this on the plane I pray that God has his hands laid on my mom.
We were able to leave at 11:30pm to head to Indy. It was a very hard goodbye. My middle boy took it the hardest. I prayed for peace in his heart that God would be with him and let him know that mommy and daddy will be just fine.
We arrived at Indy about 3:00 in the morning. We checked our bags in and waited for our flight at 5:45 to DC. I was still feeling calm at this point. The plane arrived and we flew to DC. We landed about 7:15 and I called my kids. To say good bye again and I love them. Lily and Kait sounded good and Gabe sounded a little better( I could tell that he was still a little upset). We had a 4 hour layover. So Nick and I walked around in the meantime. The entire time I was texting kait.
We grabbed a bite to eat and checked in. Looking at the airplane with Ethiopian Air down the side hit me like a brick. I started to shake. I couldn't believe in just 1 hour I would be boarding this flight that would take me across the world to see my son.
We were getting ready to board and about four policemen wheel this man in in a wheelchair. The man starts screaming and yelling saying he needs his meds and that he was not getting on the plane. This man was going crazy. I mean CRAZY! I then start to feel my BP going up, hives on my neck and face. I started to freak out . I went from being so happy to scared all in about 5 sec. The devil was trying to take my glory and joy once again. He doesn't want me to meet my son and he will do anything to stop it. I texted my friend Heidi and was telling her what was going on. Heidi sent me this text "the devil is trying all he can. Too bad your joy is unshakeable, you serve a God that is above ALL things. You are protected. Confident hope!" I can't tell you I wasn't freaking out still but I also felt a sense of peace. They then took the man away. We then went to our seats and I thanked Heidi and The Lord.
It was now almost 8:00 and we would be landing around midnight in Addis Ababa. I would be holding my child in around five hours. I could not believe this. God is so good. I slept about five hours and Nick really didn't sleep at all. I prayed he wouldn't crash when we got there. Because of the time difference it would be about 6:30 am . So we would be up the entire day again.
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