SURRENDER

     It has been ten days since our family got the great news that we had a son who is, in Ethiopia. I am the happiest momma in world at this point. Nick and I have been preparing ourselves for a long wait, at least a full year, or two, on the wait list. We waited only two months to the day. I have many things going on in my head at this point. I am so overwhelmed with joy and happiness that I can’t image anything at all bringing me down. I have always, my entire life, been a believer in God, but I have to confess I have a hard time with trusting in Him and giving up control to Him. Nick and I have joined a small group with our church and I had confessed to all of them that I have issues with giving up control to God, and that I truly would like to work on that. I have to tell you all that I love our God, but I am a bit of a control freak. Everyday I struggle with submitting myself to the Lord’s will for my life. I trusted God enough to get me to heaven, but not enough to be the person He created me to be. Fortunately, through my small group and prayer I began to grow weary of trying to manage and control my own life (it wasn’t working for me). I was actually relieved to hand it over to God. Let me tell you when I did, I experienced overwhelming joy and love. I have to tell all of you I have been trying to control this journey to our son the entire time and when I decided to surrender this journey to our heavenly Father, He showed us His plan. Let me tell you I love His plan. He gave us a beautiful son. We all love him so much. The wait for our court date is going to be very hard but I am at ease knowing God is in control.

If any of you are in a similar place today, I urge you to not wait another moment. Surrender all that you have and all that you are to the Lord and see where He takes you. I have shared where He is taking me, and I can’t wait to see what else He has in store for me! “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him” (1Corinthians 2:9 NIV)

REFERRAL CALL... IT’S A BOY!!!!!!!!!

                                                                      

O boy big news everyone!  Last Wednesday Dec.4th at 2:00, my husband got the phone call. Referral call!!!!!! Nick was at work at the farm, and I was at the shop getting ready to walk out the door. Nick called me about 2:15 and the first thing he said was how are you feeling? Well I have to tell ya’ll, I have been feeling a bit sick for a little while, and that day was a bad day for me not feeling good at all. Then Nick asked me if I was sitting down? My heart stopped then! Somehow I just knew he was going to tell me we got the referral call. Nick proceeded to tell me about a little boy who just turned 5 the end of November. Nick kept talking with info about our precious boy and I could only think about thanking God, as tears rolled down my face. Nick then told me Julie is going to call us at 3:00 and we both need to be there to learn all the info we can about our son, and see his precious face! The face that I have been praying for, I finally get to see. All I could think was, is this real?

 

Well 3:00 came Julie called and it is really real. We have a son in Ethiopia waiting for us to bring him home. I hope you are smiling just as big as I am as I type this. Julie gave us a lot of info on our son and I can tell you my little guy has been through so much. It truly breaks my heart. For a moment, I felt ashamed at feeling so much joy, and he has going through so much pain and confusion. It was so bittersweet. I don’t know how else to describe it. Across the world in Africa, a family experienced loss and pain. We got a son. It doesn’t seem fair, but then, it is all in God’s plan and “ K “ will have a forever family now. We are so ready to love him, comfort him, and give him a forever home. I tell you at the end she asked us if we were ready to see him( if she sends the pics 1^st a lot of parents can’t focus on all the info she needs to get through)I told her we are so ready to see his pic. So I called the kiddos downstairs and told them that they have a brother and asked if they would like to see him? They all got huge smiles on their faces and nodded their heads yes. So Julie who is on speaker phone sent the pics through email. EEEEEEEK! There he was our son who we have already had in our hearts, there on our computer screen. I started crying so hard that I think it scared Lily. She just stood there and stared at me. Gabe kept hugging me. Awe, my kids wanted to comfort their momma. After they realized it was happy tears, big smiles came across all of their faces. They were so excited to see their brother. They all kept saying he’s so cute. Let me tell you cute is not the only word for him. He is perfect and adorable. Wait until you all see my little guy’s cheeks! You will fall apart! We love him so much and can’t wait to get him home. God is so good! Praise the Lord! Thank you God for the best Christmas present a momma could ever get. Thank all for your support and prayers we love you all! We can’t wait to share our little guy with you all!

 

At this point we have all the paperwork done, getting them notarized tomorrow, and sent out! Then Julie will tell us our next step. I will fill you all in when we know the time we will be flying to Ethiopia to meet our son. Remember we will be making two trips before we can bring him home forever.

One more note sorry I cannot post any pics of “ K.” It is illegal to post pics of orphans. If I do post any pics, my son will have a heart over his face to hide his identity.  

 

 JOHN 14:18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.