SURRENDER

     It has been ten days since our family got the great news that we had a son who is, in Ethiopia. I am the happiest momma in world at this point. Nick and I have been preparing ourselves for a long wait, at least a full year, or two, on the wait list. We waited only two months to the day. I have many things going on in my head at this point. I am so overwhelmed with joy and happiness that I can’t image anything at all bringing me down. I have always, my entire life, been a believer in God, but I have to confess I have a hard time with trusting in Him and giving up control to Him. Nick and I have joined a small group with our church and I had confessed to all of them that I have issues with giving up control to God, and that I truly would like to work on that. I have to tell you all that I love our God, but I am a bit of a control freak. Everyday I struggle with submitting myself to the Lord’s will for my life. I trusted God enough to get me to heaven, but not enough to be the person He created me to be. Fortunately, through my small group and prayer I began to grow weary of trying to manage and control my own life (it wasn’t working for me). I was actually relieved to hand it over to God. Let me tell you when I did, I experienced overwhelming joy and love. I have to tell all of you I have been trying to control this journey to our son the entire time and when I decided to surrender this journey to our heavenly Father, He showed us His plan. Let me tell you I love His plan. He gave us a beautiful son. We all love him so much. The wait for our court date is going to be very hard but I am at ease knowing God is in control.

If any of you are in a similar place today, I urge you to not wait another moment. Surrender all that you have and all that you are to the Lord and see where He takes you. I have shared where He is taking me, and I can’t wait to see what else He has in store for me! “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him” (1Corinthians 2:9 NIV)